Dear Olivia,
We finally made it to 2012!! That means you are only 2 months away! Phew.. I can't wait for your arrival for many reasons: 1. my back hurts from carrying you; 2. I can't wait to meet you; 3. I am tired of being big. Don't get the wrong idea. I am not regretting for having you. Pregnancy is just not fun. Some people enjoy being pregnant. I am not. I simply just want to jump through the whole 9 months of anticipating and gaining weight. I am afraid that I will never get back to my shape.
Speaking of fear... I am getting real nervous about what 2012 will bring. First, we are still in the extreme slow process of renovating our house. I can't see where we will get to before you are born. You probably won't even care because you will just need my breast milk, and changing diapers. Secondly, our renters of the condo are sort of burden on my heart. I confess that I have some trust issues. I pray that God will set me free from worries and really guide me and lead me to His path. Third, my job is kind at a cross-road. I don't really want to stay at work after having you, but we can't live on 1 paycheck. So, I either have to work 50% or find some other contract jobs. I don't mind leaving my current position. I actually look forward to leave and work somewhere else. I just want to have enough time for you, your baba and God. My motivation for work is less each day. I am really getting to the "nesting" groove.
So, there you have 3 major worries.
At least, I am glad that you are inside somewhere safe and grow with lots of nutrients. I feel that you would understand what I am going through because you are I are literally in one body right now. People say "Like mother, like daughter". I just pray we will understand each other's differences and cherish each other's similarities. You represent hope to me. I pray for peace, love and joy in our future relationship. I hope the year of 2012 will teach me how to be stronger in Christ and show love/mercy toward every situation. I am sure there will be moments when I run out of patience with you. At the end, you will help me become a better person just like how your baba has influenced my life since we got married. I am so thankful that I married your baba and still stick with him during difficult situations. To God be the glory!
We finally made it to 2012!! That means you are only 2 months away! Phew.. I can't wait for your arrival for many reasons: 1. my back hurts from carrying you; 2. I can't wait to meet you; 3. I am tired of being big. Don't get the wrong idea. I am not regretting for having you. Pregnancy is just not fun. Some people enjoy being pregnant. I am not. I simply just want to jump through the whole 9 months of anticipating and gaining weight. I am afraid that I will never get back to my shape.
Speaking of fear... I am getting real nervous about what 2012 will bring. First, we are still in the extreme slow process of renovating our house. I can't see where we will get to before you are born. You probably won't even care because you will just need my breast milk, and changing diapers. Secondly, our renters of the condo are sort of burden on my heart. I confess that I have some trust issues. I pray that God will set me free from worries and really guide me and lead me to His path. Third, my job is kind at a cross-road. I don't really want to stay at work after having you, but we can't live on 1 paycheck. So, I either have to work 50% or find some other contract jobs. I don't mind leaving my current position. I actually look forward to leave and work somewhere else. I just want to have enough time for you, your baba and God. My motivation for work is less each day. I am really getting to the "nesting" groove.
So, there you have 3 major worries.
At least, I am glad that you are inside somewhere safe and grow with lots of nutrients. I feel that you would understand what I am going through because you are I are literally in one body right now. People say "Like mother, like daughter". I just pray we will understand each other's differences and cherish each other's similarities. You represent hope to me. I pray for peace, love and joy in our future relationship. I hope the year of 2012 will teach me how to be stronger in Christ and show love/mercy toward every situation. I am sure there will be moments when I run out of patience with you. At the end, you will help me become a better person just like how your baba has influenced my life since we got married. I am so thankful that I married your baba and still stick with him during difficult situations. To God be the glory!
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